cruel oasis, by Cassidy Civet

cruel oasis

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1.	Ships 03:18	lyrics	buy track
The stars align The stars they kill I know you're strong An iron will The farther I slide down This rabbit hole a slippery slope My insides fly like butterflies As I begin to lose hope You're so much Stronger now Stronger than I'd hoped My heart's red like clay Assimilate qualities you won't betray What level of transparency Do you need to see from me I paint my face my make up on It's my camouflage Catch my stare across The stars Your advance I have to dodge But I wanna be more, I wanna be more I wanna be more than ships that pass in the night I wanna be more, I wanna be more I wanna be more than ships that pass in the night I wanna be more, I wanna be more I wanna be more than ships that pass in the night Chin Up Don't bet on sinking ships because they'll turn your chips to trash You've got to set your sights and hopes on setting not to crash The truth can seem quite bleak if you don't make your plans unfurl But I would not let that mar my opinion of the Chin Up Don't bet on sinking ships because they'll only drag you down You've got to keep on sailing even when you want to frown The world will keep on turning without matter where you land You might as well be running when your feet should hit the sand
2.	Mutual 03:02	lyrics	buy track
How do you psych yourself up for this What words are best prior to a kiss? I've got a list I use the mirror to brace myself, cause my friends all know you as well And I'm far too embarrassed to tell them that I want my love to be mutual Why can't my love be mutual I love my love to be mutual Can you feel it You are all that remains in my brain Even when I'm drained at the end of the day You're like a bear hibernating for winter And my heart has become the cave Cause when you wake up and I see you My life every time you will save but I'd love my love to be mutual Why can't my love be mutual I'd love my love to be mutual Do you feel it Baby, let's make this mutual I've tried so long to keep my cool I want to make this mutual Do you feel it Can you feel it now I hang my head in suspense I've asked and all I can hope for is yes I cannot let myself get stressed How'd I talk myself into this Tension in the room, palpable You can cut it with a spoon You look at me and I look right back at you Do you feel it too Yes I want my love to be mutual I'd love my love to be mutual Why can't my love be mutual Do you feel it Baby, let's make this mutual I've tried so long to keep my cool I want to make this mutual Do you feel it now I want my love to be mutual Why can't my love be mutual I'd love to make this mutual Do you feel it Baby, let's make this mutual I've tried so long to keep my cool I want to make this mutual Do you feel it
3.	Sakura 02:52	lyrics	buy track
Hey I've got to tell you something It's so hard To say, bad news But I Can't bare to see you Go Hold you by the hand And you hold mine Seasons pass till it's Springtime All of the flowers and trees Are coming in bloom Sakura, nanana Now don't walk too far You've taken my heart Sakura, nanana You are my shining star I give up I can't stop I can't hide anymore Listen up You're the one I am fighting for Time will pass We will last For many springtimes more Sakura, endure Woah I am speechless Wonder how you'll Take this I'm anxious Can't let it Show A twinkle in your eye As it just clicks You realize we are Perfect Wind through the trees Blows petals free I am complete Sakura, nanana Now don't walk too far You've taken my heart Sakura, nanana You are my shining star I give up I can't stop I can't hide anymore Listen up You're the one I am fighting for Time will pass We will last For many springtimes more Sakura, endure Sakura, nanana Now don't walk too far You've taken my heart Sakura, nanana You are my shining star I give up I can't stop I can't hide anymore Listen up You're the one I am fighting for Time will pass We will last For many springtimes more Sakura, endure Sakura, nanana Now don't walk too far You've taken my heart Sakura, nanana You are my shining star I give up I can't stop I can't hide anymore Listen up You're the one I am fighting for Time will pass We will last For many springtimes more Sakura, endure But what about your mom Who cares what she says But what about your dad I'll say the same thing But what about the world It will never be the same We can do anything now that our Love is unchained
4.	look mom no hands 04:03	lyrics	buy track
You don't know where I'm going So get out of my way I don't care that it's snowing I'm going anyway Just stop right there You think that you're being a help Well, I can't take care of myself 21 years and I've felt none Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands No chance Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no chance I will fall for you again Heat of the moment Scorched earth was enormous A blister is forming So I must be going Nails dig in my wrist Please let go of it I'm bleeding, you're crying I'm leaving, you're lying Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands No chance, no Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no chance I will fall for you again Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands Look, mom, no hands No chance Look, mom, no hands Get your last glance Look, mom, no chance I will fall for you again
5.	Crying In The Shower 03:24	lyrics	buy track
I dream that I can work it out, hurts more when it all comes down I'm trying to live my life for right now, bubbles up when I get down But I can't do this, I can't do this, the world keeps spinning around No I can't do this, I can't do this, I want to feel safe and sound Behind the curtain and the walls, the tears go down the drain I'm lost in all this water, it's numbing all the pain I'm crying in the shower, I'm crying in the shower It's okay to let it out, thoughts and dreams we think about It's better than to keep them in But I know it's hard to be bold Do things we aren't told, and learn to stand alone Which is why it sucks that sometimes my mind is like I can't do this, I can't do this, the world keeps spinning around No I can't do this, I can't do this, I want to feel safe and sound Behind the curtain and the walls, the tears go down the drain I'm lost in all this water, it's numbing all the pain I'm crying in the shower, I'm crying in the shower I've never been the type to, never give up, never give up I always find the life to, never give up, never give up Another day to fight through, never give up, never give up Yeah I can outlast you, don't give up, never give up Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Behind the curtain and the walls, the tears go down the drain I'm lost in all this water, it's numbing all the pain I'm crying in the shower, I'm crying in the shower Now it's time to throw you down, down into the drain I've dreamed of starting over, but it always ends the same A chance for starting over, is coming once again I'll go back in the shower, if I go down in flames
6.	Power 03:14	lyrics	buy track
Walls up, guarded like my heart's a treasure I've got courage to dictate it's over I don't believe in chivalry that battles long Using my shield till wounds have healed at any cost I, I took your power away Told you that someday I'd live my life without you And I, I took your power away Always hoped and prayed I'd live my life without you Watch clocks, universe decide when I will find the Equinox A sign to put my plans into motion I don't believe in chivalry that battles long Using my shield till wounds have healed at any cost I, I took your power away Told you that someday I'd live my life without you And I, I took your power away Always hoped and prayed I'd live my life without you I told you, I told you, I told you That I, I took your power away Told you that someday I'd live my life without you And I, I took your power away Always hoped and prayed I would rule without you I told you, and I told you, I told you I'd take your power away
7.	Stage Dive 02:28	lyrics	buy track
My mistake, I confided in a snake Give and take, opened heart just for heartbreak I should have known, believe the person they have shown And now I'm grown, time to leave you all alone And I've taken your blows, the ship overflows You'd rather not see me alive No better send-off than a stage dive Taken your blows, the ship overflows You'd rather not see me alive No better send-off than a stage dive Oh, oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh Oh-oh, oh-oh You'd rather not see me alive No better send-off than a stage dive I guess it made sense, going gets tough backstab all your friends Did it feel good in the end Quick glance, see there's no one left, huh Do you hear your victims growing near Spiders in your ears, time to face your biggest fears And I've, taken your blows, the ship overflows You'd rather not see me alive No better send-off than a stage dive And I've, taken your blows, the ship overflows You'd rather not see me alive No better send-off than a stage dive Oh, oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh You'd rather not see me alive No better send-off than a stage dive
8.	Light Up The Room 02:54	lyrics	buy track
I, I've got a feeling Talk about you when I'm sleeping Give me that warm and fuzzy feeling How can I be sure That you've got the cure When my soul needs healing I feel the biggest spark You scare away the dark Discover something new The way that you do what you do I always follow after You, you The way that you light up the Room, room And if you leave it'd be too Soon, soon, The way that you light up the Room, room Love to the highest bidder I think I've found a winner. It's you The center of my universe, I am your devoted Earth, It's true I feel the biggest spark You scare away the dark Discover something new The way that you do what you do I always follow after You, you The way that you light up the Room, room And if you leave it'd be too Soon, soon, The way that you light up the Room, room The sun may not seem like it's shining Cause you're lighting, Yeah you're lighting up Yeah, you're lighting up Chorus: The room, room The way that you light up the Room, room And if you leave it'd be too Soon, soon, The way that you light up the Room, room
9.	Pass You 04:26	lyrics	buy track
Started to cry Yet I only just woke up Couldn't tell you why How old am I Many years of building up My mind is a run on sentence Does everybody think this hard Threads of all my little thoughts Tangled in a messy knot We all get angry More at me than you I know you hate me I know, I hate me too And I know you'll get through Don't let those moments pass you Before you know, they'll be passing you by Before you know, they'll be passing you by Save what's left I'm paid to be creative It's so intense My room, a cruel oasis I can observe All the ways I've been hurt And still be subjective But what can I learn When I resinge the burn The pain I'm inflicted We all get angry More at me than you I know you hate me I know, I hate me too And I know you'll get through Don't let those moments pass you Before you know, they'll be passing you by Before you know, they'll be passing you by A comforting voice In this big empty void But I beg you to say Say You'll always be there And you've always cared But I wait all day Day We all get angry More at me than you I know you hate me I know, I hate me too And I know you'll get through Don't let those moments pass you Before you know, they'll be passing you by Before you know, they'll be passing you by We all get angry More at me than you I know you hate me I know, I hate me too And I know you'll get through Don't let those moments pass you Before you know, they'll be passing you by Before you know, they'll be passing you by
10.	Madeline Vanfleet 04:25	lyrics	buy track
Another day, another moment lost Another day, another unknown cost Although I try, I can't bring it out Look in her eyes, what does she know now If only they could find me, the one who holds the key Oh Madeline, oh Madeline, save your memories Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet All I can do is try, while you still remember me Another ride on the carousel Began to cry, only time can tell Hid it away, the horse's hollow frame The gift you gave, the one that bore my name If only they could find me, the one who holds the key Oh Madeline, oh Madeline, save my memories Madeline, Madeline Van Fleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet All I can do is try, while you still remember me If only that day had gone a little differently Oh Madeline, oh Madeline, are you still with me Madeline, Madeline Van Fleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet I hope you know I tried, but we have to say goodbye Madeline, Madeline Van Fleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet Madeline, Madeline Vanfleet I hope you know I tried, but we have to say goodbye Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
11.	cry forever 03:50	lyrics	buy track
Cry, I just wanna cry I just wanna die I feel like I've tried enough Why, nobody tells me why Why am I still alive It's eating me up inside I feel like I could cry forever I feel like I could cry forever I wish that I could stay forever And never be alone forever Time, everything takes time Frustrating that my mind Won't see the finish line this time See, what you only wish to see And you think that you know me But what you see is lies I feel like I could cry forever I feel like I could cry forever I wish that I could stay forever And never be alone forever Sight, fog is covering my sight It's too hard to stay inside Remember all those nights we'd fight Made, the decision has been made A price no life should pay I really wished you'd stay I feel like I could cry forever I feel like I could cry forever I wish that I could stay forever And never be alone forever I feel like I could cry forever I feel like I could cry forever I wish that I could stay forever And never be alone forever
12.	Black Wolf 04:06	lyrics	buy track
Remember when you had my back To the hills when they attack Saw when you began to run Gone once the fight had begun You can't hide In the pitch black night With the hunter's eyes It's no surprise They got you Could've stayed to fight Loud bark no bite With the turning tide I'm the scapegoat right I told you But Where will you, where will you Where will you go W-Where will you Where will you, where will you Where will you go When all that's left for you Is the company of ghosts Where will you go When the black wolf follows you home It's not hard to pick a side One's a liar, one is right You're dishonest when you speak Promises, like you, are weak You can't hide In the pitch black night With the hunter's eyes It's no surprise They got you Could've stayed to fight Loud bark no bite With the turning tide I'm the scapegoat right I told you But Where will you, where will you Where will you go W-Where will you Where will you, where will you Where will you go When all that's left for you Is the company of ghosts Where will you go When the black wolf follows you home I know all the words you said I know all the things you did I know I won't soon forget What you did, to me Me Where will you, where will you Where will you go W-Where will you Where will you, where will you Where will you go When all that's left for you Is the company of ghosts Where will you go When the black wolf follows you home Where will you go Where will you go Where will you go When all that's left for you Is the company of ghosts Where will you go When the black wolf follows you home
13.	something small 02:34	lyrics	buy track
You You never talk back You seem to have that Side of you under control Can You help me be good I try but I could Be better, if this wasn't the end of the world Even though I never pray I hope to God I never wake To live through another day Cause lately there is nothing worse Than living in this universe Full of mistakes I think it's time For me to say goodbye For me to say goodbye I've got to go I'll see you on the other side I'll see you on the other side Lie I want you to lie You said that I made strides But I can't understand why When we're in the moment We don't just hold it, we choke it We admire the flames But we wonder who will stoke it A fight can be a lot of fun If you're not the one invited Don't ever dare to strike the match And be the one to light it I think it's time For me to say goodbye For me to say goodbye I've got to go I'll see you on the other side I'll see you on the other side
14.	Raise A Glass (Album Version) 03:29	lyrics	buy track
I gotta get off of the internet Before I say something I regret Couped up and frustrated My brain goes to dark places It's been hard not gonna lie And it's okay to breakdown sometimes But I can feel inside I'm gonna make it out alive One day we'll be together Some day when the world is better Raise a glass to the time we lost Like the last year of life was paused And talk till the sun comes up We got a weekend so why stop? For more than a year I felt alone Days go by never saw a soul I'm in good company at last So join in and raise a glass Yeah you know I felt that too Sometimes thought we wouldn't get through As days became weeks My outlook turned bleak I spent a lot of time just crying Not living, just surviving It's tough but I know, tonight I'm gonna make it out alive One day we'll be together Some day when the world is better Raise a glass to the time that we lost Like the last year of life was paused And talk till the sun comes up We got a weekend so why stop? For more than a year I felt alone Months go by never saw a soul I'm in good company at last So join in and raise a glass I just wanna hug you I feel like I could kiss you I want you to know in every way That I missed you I know not everyone is here Yeah they won't just disappear The scars and memories Will always be near Raise a glass to the time that we lost Like the last year of life was paused And talk till the sun comes up We got a weekend so why stop? Reunite at our favorite place Been too long since I saw your face We don't need to talk about the past Grab a drink and raise a glass

about

i released my debut album "Double Take" on February 29, 2020
the world changed shortly after
it's been over 3 years since then, we may have made it through
but what we endured, we yet to fully process the impacts
welcome, to the "cruel oasis"
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written from 2017-2023, this album comprises mostly of the music i wrote during the pandemic, every song cut/inclusion was painstaking
however, the tracklist remains still in the order of conception.

this album is a major turning point for me i feel
really putting my mark on the world and future of furry music
especially pop music
if i had never taken the chance on myself to release even a debut album
then i would never be here releasing my second

there are distinct layers, groupings, and emotions on this record.
i implore everyone to listen and dig as deep as possible
from the many faces of conflict, internal and otherwise
to emotional spaces you never thought reachable in song

CDs will be available from today and should ship next week, with my first ever vinyl to follow in the coming months~

but that is all, thank you all for joining me on this long personal journey
through my own personal cruel oasis,
and I hope this album helps you through yours
see you on the other side~ <3

- Cassidy Civet

special thanks to all my patrons at the time of the cd pressing:
Eiko Tsukida
Cassidy's Toy
Indigo Thoughts
Kyanni Lioness
Ajax Fox

Angeluru
Stuperfox
Toilet
Petrov Neutrino
Charlie Hart
Ryzote
Yellow-K9
Kilodyne
JRaccoon
Quuxum Mephitida
MatthewB
Troublesome Dragoness
Daniel Leroux

Tanaki
Sasha Moore
Keith&Loretta
Oerpink
Kasai The Zorkit
Caper
Kolaghan
Yevhen, The Immortal Dragon
Cinna
ADre Williams
HackTheWorlds
Benji the Beagle Productions
Sir Quaker

credits

released August 4, 2023

all songs written, composed,
and performed by Cassidy Civet
all songs recorded, mixed,
and mastered at East West Track
with engineering by Reza Sadeghi
additional feedback from Steve Milani

"Raise A Glass" features Cooper Milani
on electric guitar, and Pepper Coyote on acoustic guitar, bass, drums,
and backing vocals.
"Ships" features Cooper Milani on
electric guitar and Steve Milani
on bass.

cover art by b0y_w1th_a_c01n
front text & fx by caine_the_cat
back art by amber_wind
interior left by @magicabelladone
interior right by anthracite
final graphic rendering by levi hildebrandt

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Cassidy Civet Vancouver, British Columbia

24, POC LGBT Furry Pop Singer, always writing music for every genre please stop me

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What else is there to say...uh...I really like the TV show Survivor and have applied to be on it twice. I'm a dual Canadian-Italian citizen. Uh...yeah idk what else to say. Support me! :D ... more

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